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ing intercourse with Thee. May I have my conversation in heaven. In company could discover some risings of vanity and self-consequence in my heart. Still feel the power and urgency of yesterday's impressions. I am disturbed about my want of clearness as to the understanding of sin; but I look unto Jesus, in the hope that through Him all my deficiencies will be made up. Let me every day respect His prayer. Perfect, O God, that which concerns me call me to a right understanding of Thy truth: raise me to the love and enjoyment of Thee; and may the good seed hasten to maturity, and yield fruit in abundance.
Sunday, October 25th.-Served tables for Mr. Thomson, and preached in the afternoon to a very crowded audience. I am doubtful whether my habit of composition should not be let down to the bulk of the people. I have much to reproach myself for the selfish love of applause.-O my God, follow with Thy rich blessing all the services of this day, and crucify all that is vain and unchristian within me.
"October 26th.-Preached a missionary sermon in the evening. My love of applause broke out again. Disappointed at the smallness of the collection. Was fatigued; but as I am told that I was more than heard in the large Steeple Church of Dundee, let me preach with more composure and self-command. O my God, make this appetite for applause to depart from me. Form me by Thy grace; and all I ask is for Christ's sake.
"November 5th.-Was unwell on Monday, and had my devotional forenoon this day. The following is the record of it: -Prayed for a blessing on the whole exercise. Felt my union with Christ; and prayed that emptied of self, I might be filled with the fulness and the sufficiency of the Saviour. Prayed for the greater elements of my soul's health, for the increase of my faith in Christ, and establishment in Him; for sanctification, for a growing delight in God, for the perfect love which
casteth out fear, for a sense of the obligation of His will, for a more correct and clear view of the evil of sin, for those principles which lead us to shun all that is opposed to the will of God, and dispose us to all obedience. Descended from the greater elements to the more particular applications; and, with the maintenance of the right attitude for discharging our duties, viz., looking unto Jesus for the promises of the Spirit, prayed for the keeping of my heart with all diligence, for the regulation of my thoughts, for victory over the temptations of actual life, for the charity which maintaineth patience amid all that is irksome and provoking in those around us, for freedom from anxiety about worldly matters, for liberality to the poor, for a perpetual desire and diligence to be useful, for freedom from the love of applause, and, finally, for an example, pure in all its points, and calculated to gain converts in every quarter of society. Prayed for the repentance and remission of my sin of negligence in holy things, as a minister of the gospel; for my parish, and for the more attentive and conscientious discharge of my engagements amongst them. Prayed for my relations and friends. Prayed for the propagation of the gospel; and concluded with a prayer for the Divine blessing on the whole exercise."
"KILMANY MANse, Nov. 5, 1812.
"MY DEAR JANE,-Instead of filling up valuable space with apologies, I shall just say, that it is my wish and purpose to be more punctual in future; that though my wife engrosses a large part of my heart, and is worthy of a still larger, she has not dispossessed you by a single inch out of my affection; that I have room for you both; and trust I shall ever look upon correspondence with you as a point not merely of duty, but supreme and much-loved enjoyment. I have now had three months' experience of matrimony; and, as I know you will be
anxious for my comfort, I can tell you that all my apprehensions founded on discrepancies of temper or want of congeniality between me and the partner of my fate, have turned out to be so many bugbears; that my affection is every day receiving new accessions to its strength and its steadiness; that I meet with nothing but the most cheerful and delighted concurrence; and what you must know to be of particular importance to me, that she interests herself in the success of my professional exertions; that I am getting nearer to the state of her soul, by intimate and close conversation on the greatest of all concerns; and I trust in the Hearer of prayer that she will rise from the first elements of repentance and faith to the joyful hopes and new life of a confirmed disciple. Poor Mr. Johnston of Rathillet is dying; I saw him to-day for the first time. Mrs. Johnston was much overpowered. He, poor man, is so low that I am not sure if he recognised me. His son James, from Glasgow, was in the room; and what with the deep affliction of the wife and son, and the moving spectacle before me, I never was so melted into a sense of the vanity of all that is human."
" November 6th.-Mr. Johnston died this morning, at eight o'clock."
Soon after receiving this intimation, Mr. Chalmers despatched the following letter to Rathillet :
"KILMANY MAnse, Nov. 6, 1812. "DEAR MRS. JOHNSTON,-The mournful intelligence of poor Mr. Johnston's death reached me from the village this morning; and, with my warmest sympathy for you all, I offer my prayers that you may be supported in this the day of your visitation; that God may sanctify your cup of discipline, and that we may all take warning from an event so deeply affecting to the whole neighbourhood.
"I can say for myself that I count myself to have sustained a heavy personal loss in the death of your truly excellent husband, and shall long have to regret the want of that society which I loved, and of that conversation which often guided and supported me in the great and common objects of our faith and ministry.
"I would not have obtruded so soon upon the deep and overpowering grief of your family, had it not been for a wish, in which Mrs. Chalmers joins me, that you would take all the accommodation which our house can afford. Would it not be better that you should be relieved as much as possible of the press of nightly visitors to which the various friends of your family, and the very high and general esteem in which Mr. Johnston was held, must necessarily expose you? I beg you would make over as many of them to us as possible; and it occurs to Mrs. Chalmers that if any of your sons or your daughters would take up their abode with us for some time, it may be of some use in diverting their thoughts from the melancholy which oppresses them.
"I again offer my warmest expressions of friendship and condolence, and pray that one and all of us may be strengthened and improved under this dispensation of a good but mysterious Providence.
"Do not put yourself to the trouble of writing. I shall call to-morrow; and in the mean time, should there be any visitors upon you to-night, I beg that you will avail yourself of our house. Yours most truly, THOMAS CHALMERS."
This letter is the best voucher for the very great regard in which Mr. Johnston was held by Mr. Chalmers, and the best memorial of the affectionate intercourse which had subsisted between their families. On the Sabbath after his interment, Mr. Chalmers referred from the pulpit to the great loss which
the neighbourhood had sustained; and in alluding to the benefit which he had personally derived from his society, he used, as was his custom when expressing his obligations to others, language which created a false impression-that he attributed his own change to his conversations with Mr. Johnston.*
"November 10th.-Have begun to compose prayer in a more scriptural style with the assistance of 'Henry on Prayer.' Resumed Calvin, but have taken to the English translation.
" November 16th.-Left home with my dear wife this morning for Flisk, where I preached. Dined at the manse with a large Cupar party, and spent the evening in Mrs. Morton's. Hesitated betwixt a plain and an elaborate sermon for the people, and decided on the former. Pray that I may be strictly conscientious in this department of conduct. Felt long and frequent vacuities of religious sentiment, and feel my need of wisdom among those who are without. O my God, do Thou allay my hunger and thirst after righteousness, by filling me.
"November 17th.-Left Flisk after breakfast. Feel long and dreary intervals of estrangement from God, with occasional gleams of faith. Felt impatience at Rathillet and other places. -O my God, establish the operation of Thy whole law in my heart, and let my walk be with Thee. Rose in gratitude to my Heavenly Father for the peace and comfort of our home.
"November 19th.-Mr. Tait spent the day with me. Had much congenial conversation with him, and pray that I may be supported in exhibiting the same marked and decided testimony. O God, give me to devote more of my zeal for the eternal interests of the people in my neighbourhood.
* "Mr. Johnston was a man of refined taste and great conversational powers. I was always given to understand that his conversations with him on religious subjects had been greatly blessed to Mr. Chalmers, although he never had occasion to make such an avowal to me. But it was evident that he held him in high esteem, and greatly valued his society."-Manuscript Memoranda, by the Rev. Dr. Brown of Brampton.